Letter #4

Dear @TheFray,


I probably sound really crazy for saying what I'm about to say to you, but I have nothing to lose. Today I feel alone. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere.

During every great stride in life that helps us advance to the next event ahead, we have to lose ourselves a little bit. How else would we keep going in life? If we completely know who we are and know exactly what we want and we are completely happy and no longer need to progress, then our lives can end there.

I still have a lot of progression. This is my time to figure out how to progress to the next stride in my life.

Anyway, right now I'm just a hot mess. And when I'm like this, I turn to the one thing that never lets me down: music. It's an advisor, a comforter, listener, talker, distraction, and thought provoker.

Tonight, when I felt like I let everyone down, I came into my room and wanted to talk to you. So, I turned on your music. I know I don't know you all personally, but I know your music. I know the lyrics, the beat, the rhythm, the riffs on the guitar, the harmonies. It truly is like coming and talking with an old friend. I just listen, and I let the songs soak up in my mind and heart. I sing along when I feel prompted to do so. Some songs are like hugs, others are shoulders to cry on; some let me escape to different cities, in a cafe on the beach or on a train in the mountains. I can go to Manhattan or Portland, depending on the rhythm. I let my imagination and your music take me wherever I can escape to.

The point is, in music, I can do anything. That is something I truly admire about you guys. You make more than music. You give life and friendship to those who need it most. Thank you.

xoxo,
Erin